03/01/2018- Becoming a Better Version of Me

So this blog was supposed to be my big turning point, where I talk about what I’m doing to lose weight, and get in shape, and how I’m going to become a “better person.” It was supposed to be written and come out last month. That’s how it always goes with me, right? And I’m sure everyone is tired of hearing me say the same damn shit every month. So I’m not this time. I’m going straight into the post.

I have a new doctor this year. This doctor asked me if I wanted to start taking a weight loss pill. Honestly, I didn’t put much thought into it. She said that I was “so young, so healthy,” I shouldn’t be overweight. And I can’t really argue with that, cause it’s true. I am superbly healthy. So I said sure.

There are three doses with the pills, and of course it starts at the lowest dose. The pill is a combination of phentermine and topiramate. (Side note: look them up! The topiramate is pretty interesting and has been used in a lot of different medical studies.) So for two weeks, I took the lowest dose, and in order to move on to the bigger dose, I had to lose 2-3lbs. Luckily, I did. Now I’m on to the second dosage, which is twice what the other one was. I’ll be on this one for a month, and I’m supposed to lose 5-7lbs. The next dosage is twice the current one, but I’m not sure how long I’ll continue on that.

As my doctor liked to remind me, even as I was saying it myself, I can’t just rely on the pills. I have to make changes in my diet, and my lifestyle. Before I talk about those changes, I want to talk a bit more about the pills.

When I had my doctors appointment on the 21st, I told her I wasn’t noticing a change in myself. I mention this, because the phentermine in the pill is supposed to be an appetite represent. I let her know that I did not feel as if my appetite was suppressed. So she bumped me up, and told me that if in two weeks I still hadn’t noticed a change, to call the office, and she would immediately bump me to the next dose early. I’ve been on it for a week now, and I can’t tell if it’s working. I know I am not eating as much, but I don’t know if it’s the pill, or my own will power. Maybe a bit of both? Anyway, I just wanted to mention that.

I’ve changed my diet a lot. I am no longer drinking soda, I’m not eating red meat, and somehow I’ve been able to cut back on snacking and sweets. Diet is 80% of weight loss. I know that’s a fact. It’s already been proven on my body. In just three weeks, my pants are already fitting better, and my parents have both taken notice. When I look in the mirror, I don’t see a difference. But last night, when I put on one of my sorority shirts that hasn’t fit properly in almost two years, it wasn’t tight. It wasn’t squeezing my belly or my arms. I’m almost crying thinking about it. Just that small little change has made me happy.

However, diet may be 80%, but there’s still a whole other 20% I leave untouched.

I have a workout plan for the week. I signed up for Planet Fitness. But I have not gone. I’ve worked out at home once in the three weeks since this all began. But, I’m seeing the change from my diet improving, so maybe that’s the push I need. I can lose the weight, but the skin isn’t gonna go anywhere if I’m not toning and working it. I’ve got to get my ass in gear to make sure this body is becoming the best it can be. I don’t want to be the skinniest thing out there. I just want to be happy. And I haven’t been happy in such a long time.

I recently revamped an instagram I started a thousand years ago. It’s going to be about my fitness and weight loss journey. And it’s even got the embarrassing numbers right in the bio. But maybe that’ll just be another push. (@fitgirlkaylie153)

If anyone else is going through a weight loss journey, let me know how it’s going! Give me some tips and if you have any health snack recipes, toss ’em my way!

Thanks guys:)

Kaylie