Okay, so shut up, I know. I don’t want to talk about it.
This year started off pretty great. But over the past two weeks, when school started, it’s seemed to go downhill. Things are eating away at me, and I feel like I may have placed too much stuff on my plate. But at the same time, I really love having so much to do. It makes me feel like I’m accomplishing things. Which, as I’m sure you know, feels so fucking great.
Let’s talk a little about what I’m doing for school.
I am pursuing TWO associates degrees. In May, I will have an Associates of Applied Arts, which is just the basic associates that most people get. And if everything goes according to plan, I will have an Associates of Library Technology in December.
Right now, I am currently taking three classes, one of which ends right before Spring Break. However, after Spring Break, I will be adding two more classes, for a total of four. Those classes will go towards the library thing.
I’ve always been a bookworm, and I’ve always had a thing for libraries, and as I’ve worked over the last few years, I’ve discovered I do actually like helping people. And a library is such a good place to help people. I would love to help a kid find their passion for reading, like my librarian helped me. (How many times can I say help in one paragraph??)
Okay, now we talk about health.
My mom and I were able to get insurance this year, which means I can see a doctor again. I had my new patient’s appointment today (Jan 24), and she had quite a few things to say. She’s making me go see a gynecologist for something that I know I don’t have, and she’s decided she wants to start me on a diet pill.
I honestly didn’t really care when she asked, but my boyfriend was quite upset that she did. I just can’t seem to find it in myself to be offended. The fact of the matter is, I am overweight. By way too much. I’ve hated my body for as long as I could remember, even before I got overweight.
I’ve attempted to go on diets, exercise, and I’ve bought books and found plans, but I can’t seem to make myself stay going and work hard on things. Maybe her giving me this pill will give me that push I need to get a hold of my habits and make a proper change. I’ve got all the tools, I just need to actually utilize them.
On the personal level, there’s not really anything new. Jonathan and I went through a rough patch where it seemed like we were nearing our end, but things are looking up right now. If everything goes right for school, I will be moving to Austin in January and working down there as a library assistant, until I can pay down some of my loans. The goals after that are a little hazy, besides get a bachelors and then masters.
Over on Instagram, I’ve been doing pretty good with the photo-a-day challenge, and have only missed twice, on days that had been really bad emotionally.
Speaking of projects, I’ve got 62 pages in my book! It’s been going really well lately, and I’m feeling so happy about the progress I’ve made in it.
Okay, so I think that’s all I have for today. Sorry for no pictures, but my Instagram is full of them.
Also! I just paid to upgrade this damn blog. So I have just now committed myself to this thing pretty hard. Something for me to keep in mind the next time I don’t feel like writing.